FOR A NEW BEGINNING

In out-of-the-way places of the heart,
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has been quietly forming,
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.
For a long time it has watched your desire,
Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,
Noticing how you willed yourself on,
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.
It watched you play with the seduction of safety,
And the gray promises that sameness whispered,
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,
Wondered would you always live like this.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream,
A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life's desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will home in a new rhythm,
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.

By Jon O’Donohue

 Welcome to IndiGo - Life Force Energy Healing.

My name is PattiAnn Andrejcak, Medicine Woman in the making (always evolving and never ‘there’), Master Practitioner of Energy Medicine, & Shamanic Reiki Master Practitioner. These are merely some of the roles I accept in life, some of things I do in this life but in actuality in order to go through a real healing and transformation we must let go of our roles, burn them in the fire. Even the elder shaman think of themselves as babies from the highest perspective, always learning and evolving and becoming something and someone new.

In shamanism we learn to shed our role. To set ourselves free from identification. When we let go of identifying as mother, father, CEO, dr., nurse, teacher, medicine woman we are free to be a mystery unto ourselves every day. Those roles are the things we do (important and meaningful or perhaps Not) and naming them comes in handy in our human world and society but we just don’t want to cling to the notion that that is actually who we are because we are so much bigger than all of it. When we let go of the roles we are free to do what we are called to do. We shed our roles and and we open ourselves to a deep investigation of our beliefs and the stories we have created around it all because we can’t truly heal ourselves within our old limited and often disempowering beliefs and stories, we will resign ourselves to accept our “lot” in life that is determined by all those roles and stories we identify with. Keeping us in the victim role, living in the past as the misunderstood son, the starving artist, the victim of childhood abuse or chronic illness or the mind set that old age is a slow miserable decline of pain, suffering, loosing our minds and death. Even the empowering tales we’ve learned to spin and use to replace the old ones are still only a trail map, they help us navigate life, climb the mountain but they are not the mountain themselves. When we release all of this we are free to craft our own epic story. We become the writer, director and main character of our story that includes healing and transformation and a desirable destiny. This is done at what shaman call, the hummingbird level (the soul level). It is from hummingbird level (soul level) that a new story is written, a new epic tale that then trickles down to inform our psychological and physical world. We learn to stop searching for meaning and purpose at the literal level and we find it in the mystical level where stories are epic and sacred. We die to who we convinced ourselves we were and we realize that we are made of the stuff of the earth and the stars, that we are each God appearing in human form as you and as me. From this level of consciousness there are infinite possibilities.

Pivotal time in my life

In 2009-2010 I found myself going through a “Dark Night of the Soul”. If you’ve ever experienced a dark night you know. I felt lost, I had no idea where my life was headed. My life felt out of control, aspects of my life felt so scary, so unknown, and the place I thought I should be able to turn for help, my Catholic faith, that I was born and raised in, was not holding me in a supportive way. I spent many hours sitting in the pew of an empty church talking to God. There were so many things that didn’t make sense to me. I knew I couldn’t be the only one who ever felt this way. My heart was heavy with fear, confusion, grief, guilt, and emptiness but a part of me always had hope and knew somehow I would find my way out of the darkness I found myself in. All I knew with certainty was that I loved my children deeply and I had an uncontrollable need for truth and to find what I felt was missing within myself. I knew somehow I needed to set free some aspect of myself that was hiding, even from myself. I had no idea what any of that was for sure but I sensed something was very different and a necessary change was inevitably beginning to birth.

This “Dark Night” lead me down a road I now know was gifted to me, in order to lead me on this spiritual path. During this time, I met someone who challenged my religious beliefs and challenged the ‘status quo’ so to speak within myself. All things I was beginning to do already but now without realizing this person set me deeper into exploration and questioning. At times I questioned my own sanity. I knew the people I loved could see the change happening within me, which I think was probably scary for them. But I knew, in my heart, I had no other choice at this point, seeking truth was my guiding light. Needing to find what was missing within me or what I had lost or forgotten somewhere along the way. I always had a sense of not belonging my whole life in this sort of quiet way, maybe everyone goes through that in their younger years when we are trying to figure out who we are and how we fit in with everything we are traditionally taught we are supposed to do and be and how to think. I knew I was done living ‘only’ to please others. I had to find what was missing within me, I had to. That was a scary point in my life because fear of judgement is debilitating to the soul’s journey. Judgement from society, friends, family and especially from yourself. My family, at least for me, was everything. The thought of not having the respect, love and understanding of my family, or them thinking I had gone off the deep end was frightening. There were times I wanted to go back to my ‘old self’ where I didn’t have all these questions and doubts, back to a time in my mind that seemed safer and more acceptable to others and where I could hide in the ‘normalcy’ of the world but that was just not possible. Once you ‘See’ something you cannot go back it only leads you forward with more curiosity and desire.

During my ‘Dark Night of the Soul” I counseled with a priest, and he told me no matter what, I was always good with God, just not the catholic church. Even though I felt some anger about that, those words, they also gave me comfort in many ways too. A feeling of relief because I knew what God thought about me is what really mattered. I now have come to a much deeper understanding of God and Self that I had never known before. It has been the greatest gift.

I believe that all things happen in perfect timing. As I was going through my spiritual awakening I was deep into researching all the things I was feeling and going through looking for answers and when I would get a nugget that resonated with my soul it led me to the next and the next. During that time I took a deeper dive into the science of epigenetics and neuroscience, and was introduced to some of the most fantastic spiritual teachers, and mystical traditions, including shamanism, and the wisdom and medicine of this beautiful healing work. All the things that were related to my ‘spiritual awakening’, unfolded exactly as it was supposed to. Every day I continue to expand more deeply into my work and to my true essence as a spiritual being who is having this human experience. It’s been an amazing ride so far.

The shamanic energy medicine and healing practices are rooted in the ways of the Laika, also known as the Earthkeepers, the ancient lineage of high priests and priestesses, the ancient shaman of the Andes, Amazon and the Americas.

These medicine men and women who were branded as witches and sorcerers were thought to have disappeared after the time of the Conquest, but those that managed to escape from torture, persecution and death at the hands of the Spanish conquistadors fled to the high mountains in order to protect this powerful ancient wisdom and knowledge called ‘the four insights.’ These teachings held that all of creation… the earth, humans, whales, rocks, stars, everything in the seen and unseen are all made of vibration and light. That Nothing perceived as material existed, other than as a dream that humans projected onto the world. Then in 1950, after hundreds of years of safeguarding these insights the high-shamans came down from the mountains in order to help humanity navigate the difficult challenges they knew were coming, and to help give birth to a new world, a better world for not only humans but all beings, including the care and protection of Mother Earth herself.

I feel a resonance and a feeling of home and truth within the shamanic teachings and practices. I am being guided on a journey of becoming, There are some things that cannot be taught by words. It is only through direct experience can you know the fullness, the vastness of infinity. Every day my awareness is open to synchronicities that are like beacons of light leading the way. We are all becoming every second. The question is what are you becoming? What am I becoming? What are We becoming as a humanity? Shaman believe that ‘We Are The Ones We Have been Waiting for’. The ones that are birthing a new human. Not just the new little babies being born but you and I, we are making a quantum leap in our evolution, and this is happening Now. Not over hundreds of years. The shamans call this new human ‘Homo Luminous’ it is where we can develop the Luminous Energy Fields (LEF) of angels within our lifetime. There are other names given to this new human. Father Sean O’Laoire, author of Setting God Free- Moving Beyond the Caricature We’ve Created in Our Own Image, calls this new human ‘Homo Spiritualis’. We as humans need to remember and awaken to the powerful creators that we are, live in Ayni (in harmony, in reciprocity, good karma ) with all beings of the planet, and beyond. From the worms, to trees and rivers, and mountains and animals and humans and ourselves, to the cosmos. We Are One, we are All of It. In shamanic cosmology as well as many eastern traditions we were never cast out of the garden as western religion suggests, rather we were tasked to be stewards of this beautiful green and blue planet we call earth. We are in a time of great change. We all are called to become Earthkeepers of this planet. Will we heed the call is the question? Will we heed the call of our beloved Mother who is calling for all of us to become the stewards we are meant to be. It is our work to find new solutions, to develop sustainable ecological practices in commerce, business, and medicine and to live our everyday lives in harmony with all. This is one of things we came to do.

I am filled with such gratitude for this journey I am on and for the wisdom teachings and practices I’ve come to know and use to make transformational changes in my own life. Our journeys through this life are not always easy. They are challenging, confusing and often painful but there are lessons we came here to learn and gifts we came to receive and share in order for our souls to grow and evolve. If only we were willing to open our hearts and go beyond the mind and challenge old beliefs that only leave us feeling disempowered, fearful and often self-sabotaging. Humans are addicated to pain and suffering. It’s time to know yourself, rediscover yourself at a different level so you can move beyond the pain and suffering and realize your true essence. In shamanism we learn to become masters of time. In the West, we’ve been taught that time flows in one direction only, that the future is always ahead of us and the past is always behind us, linear, like an arrow. But shamans discovered that time doesn’t just fly only like an arrow; it also turns like a wheel, in fact is can figure eight and loop back onto itself. That’s why non-linear time, is considered sacred time. Here, the future seeps into the present to summon us to our destiny. How do we respond to that calling from the future? It’s not about just trying to heal the past but saying Yes to our calling from Destiny, from the future. Our personal destiny and the collective destiny. I say this all from a linear human perspective but there is not past or future per say, All is happening now, simultaneously. Everything, every where, every how, every when is Now.

As I journeyed through the Wisdom Wheel (a sacred path ..from healing - to creator of our desired destiny). With each beautiful milestone more of myself continues to be revealed. I awakened a truth inside, and my ‘vision’ became clearer and clearer. I began to experience True Love for All Beings and for Myself in a way I hadn’t before. Clearing imprints in my chakras, removing intrusive energies, cutting cord and upgrading my LEF and more, these are the core practices that ultimately allows space for my desired reality to immerge. Life happens all around us, things we have no immediate control over and things we do. We can’t control other peoples behavior but we do have control over how we react and respond, how we perceive. When you learn to not only perceive from the level of every day life but from the level of Spirit you can understand the larger picture of all of it. You know that there are no accidents, all things happen for a reason, even the things we perceive as bad. WE see the gifts in even the things we do not prefer. and allow them to become growth and new clarity for what we do prefer. We being to see spirit inside everyone and you see that the things that people do that are less desirable or that we perceive as bad are rooted in fear, pain and suffering in that person and we can find compassion. Not saying that illegal behavior doesn’t have consequences or that intentional harm doesn’t come with heavy karma or consequences. It does, but we can see spirit in that person, we can see they are a wounded soul that needs healing.

I also study other spiritual traditions as well, many of which share the same core truths. I have learned to open my mind and heart in ways I have not known in the past. I know there are many ways to understand and embody the ‘Oneness of All That Is’ and this path I am on has led me to a place that has allowed real healing, growth and understanding that I personally could never have found if I had not challenged those old belief systems.

In my healing practice with clients, I incorporate different modalities. Offering a full spectrum of healing tools, technologies and energy work. This work is not something you just do once and you’re done. Well, let me clarify, you can and that’s ok, and it has it’s place.. absolutely, but if you want to get the deepest and most profound benefits and transformation then I invite you to be curious and go deeper into some of the practices that can launch you on your journey, on your personal quest of true healing, growth and personal transformation. You may say…I don’t need healing. I didn’t have a big traumatic experience in my childhood or in my life that I need to heal from. But the truth is we all need healing. Whether its from trauma, our own karma from other lives, ancestral wounds and karma or stories and beliefs passed down to us through our families, religions, or society that keep us stuck in pain and or suffering. Beliefs that say I am not worthy, I am not smart enough, I am not_____, fill in the blank, or that say that if I do the thing that I am passionate about I will not be loved and accepted by _____. I will start that project that I am passionate about when I have more time, money or resources or I will focus on me when my kids are grown. These are all stories we tell ourselves, stories that keep us in a lack mentality or stop us from ever living in our full potential.

 As we travel this path the Questions become the Quest. A shaman can guild you and offer the powerful healing energy medicine and tools but it is also up to you to embrace the quest, the journey because it is ultimately yours to discover and experience. I would never take that gift from you.

My practices reaches far beyond reiki. Reiki is so beautiful and so powerful in itself and I highly recommend it. What I am offering is an opportunity to go even deeper. If you are someone who is curious, who feels called to explore, heal karmic, ancestral or past life trauma, who is open to transforming and has the desire to awaken something profoundly powerful within you then reach out. Being here, reading this is a calling in itself. There are no accidents, you were called here for a reason. It is up to you to take the next steps on your journey.

Everyone has their own journey to Remembrance, that the ‘ALL THAT IS’, God, Source, the Unified Field, whatever you choose to call it makes no matter, but it encompasses everything, nothing is left out, nothing. It is “All That Is’, and that means you and everything you can see and not see is part of the ‘One, All That Is’. There are no exceptions. It’s a profound experience when you truly deeply Know this within every fiber of your being. I, by no means believe there is one path. I know there are many. In religion I learned there is not a lot of questioning rules that the church has laid out. It is their way and that’s it. You either believe a particular way or you are sort of out of the club so to speak, and in some religions you are not only out of the club but you are headed for hell.

On this path I have learned, the more questions you ask the more you realize you have so much more to know and discover and experience. Today, for me, everything is about questions and being open to experiences and wisdom. This is how we grow and evolve as a soul and a human. I invite you to open your heart and mind to higher perspectives, ideas of galactic proportions.

My personal experiences are in no way a judgment for anyone else who may find a religious or another spiritual path the one for them. I respect and honor all paths. I have clients from many backgrounds and beliefs that are experiencing great benefits from energy medicine.

Today the veil between the seen and the unseen realms is growing thinner. Energies are changing and the light codes are coming in fast and furious and many are experiences things they never have before and beginning to experience gifts they never realized they had. They are opening their minds and hearts to knowledge and wisdom that the ancient shamans have passed down for millennia or through other disciplines that are very similar. It is my honor to be able to offer these healing practices to all who are called to explore it. I work in person and remotely for those that are not within distance to travel to me. Energy is not bound by time and space, I work in sacred space.